Okay, so about four or five years ago I started cutting myself. I loved it, in fact I still do. But then last year my mom found out and I got admitted to the hospital. I spent three months there to stop hurting myself, and I did, at least for a while. I started again after two months and that was in the beginning of August 2008, now it's the end of June 2009 and I've made myself quit again. The only problem is that now, instead of cutting, I cry, a lot. Yesterday I cried so much my neighbor knocked on the wall to make me stop. I've never had a problem with telling people that I cry, but now all of a sudden I feel ashamed and can't tell anyone. If my mom comes home from work while I'm crying I jump into bed really quickly and shut up, only to not draw any attention to me crying. I'm starting a new school in two months, in a new city, and I really can't be crying like this there, since it's a student building with seven or eight other persons. My life's built on depression.
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Shy said:
this is an easy one, and i've been there -- go to health services, and get some (mild) prescription for an antidepressant. over 25% of people are depressed either genetically/chemically or situationally from childhood. Either way, the chemistry can help with the SYMPTOMS which will give you more peace, but won't solve the root issue. but you HAVE to give yourself the chance to at least see clearly. it's like wearing glasses -- doesn't fix the root problem, but solves the issues keeping you from dealing with life. promise!
julek said:
I've been on antidepressants for three years, they don't help, and they're pretty strong too.
daisy adorno said:
sorry to hear that u cut ur self but thats not going to help u nor the pills its better to talk to some one about it i did the same i started at 14 yrs of age am 45 now i stop 5 yrs ago its not easy its hard but i did it u can too good luck
julek said:
I've done evetything you say. i've taken medication i've talked to THREE psychologists, i've talked with my family and friends, I take medication and I'm outside alot just to get fresh air. NOTHING HELPS!!!!
Shy said:
doctors r there for u ut have have to fund the right doc cring is good i cryed so much that i can not cry any more u need to be whit people that been through the same not people they do not under stand they well think ur crazy and lock u up u need to deal whit it good luck if u wish to talk my email daisyadorno@aol.com i ll listen
Colie428 said:
I have been on antidepressants for over a year and let me tell you this getting off them is a bitch. My last pill (trying to get off them) was two weeks ago and im constantly sick and i feel like my head is not attached to my body and i also get really bad headaches so strongly think about other options first. if all else fails think about getting on a mild antidepressant with a low dosage. hope it helps
Lynnie said:
If the anti-depressants that you're currently on aren't working, you may need to try a different kind. You need to talk to your doctor and let him know that they aren't working for you anymore. I was on anti-depressants for almost 10 years and for those 10 years I needed them. My meds would work great for a few months to a year and then slowly would lose their effect, than I'd have to switch to something new. They would take the edge off but wouldn't heal my depression. I was eventually able to cope without them but that was after learning how to deal with it through years of trying different techniques.
You could always go the self help route. I would recommend getting the book "From Panic to Power" by Lucinda Bassett. It's an awesome book and it helped me. It has different techniques of coping with anxiety and depression. I suffered with agoraphobia and also used to cut myself when I was younger. I found that a combination of different things helped me. I had my psychiatrist, my family, my medications, self help books and meditation and yoga. I don't think just one thing would've done the trick.
You can get through this even though it seems like you can't. Kudos for you for quitting cutting. You should be proud that you were able to make yourself stop. I don't think your crying spells will be a permanent thing, but it helps to do slow breathing and concentrate on something else. Good luck!
lilysecret said:
Actually taking medications like anti depressant doesn't help sometimes. I think you have an inner problem, that you are hidding inside. Why not try to talk to people whom you really trust. Yeah I know some people are hard to trust. But try to find someone who could really listen to you. Why not try counseling. You need to open up yourself, and try to admit that you really have aproblem. And once you do that your on the way of having a peace of mind.
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